The Spring Reception, I didn't want to go. but we have to show our faces. Across the room I saw several visiting parents, my own sponsor is present tonight, a good man who has several children he sponsors here at the academy. Some of the old people are sitting laughing at something someone said. Festive and full of light.
But not for me... I have been afraid since last meeting with Sam. I feel fear as real as I feel Sam's hand holding my own...we look across the room and see everyone in their fine clothes...I wished to be invisible tonight and reassured Sam we are.
The room looks like a palace it is so full of light. I see the owl from here, is it trying to tell me something? I look in the direction I see the owl is looking and my heart drops. I hear only my breathing and my heart pounding, I know he is talking to me wanting me to be with him, now, here at this grand place...but the old fear is here..and no doubt it is real. The owl warned me. I see her across the room. Scared now, already having checked my exits I kiss my Sammy's forehead, I love his hair a little. I can not look into his eyes and slip out. I feel awful leaving Sam without word. but I run, run hard and hope she didn't see me. Hope my magic worked keeping us invisible long enough...why cant she just forget me. I can not go back to her, I can not leave now, not now. How will I live without Sam's protection..I run home....my heart racing ...tears staining my face.
Up the steps I quickly grab my bag...think Colleen think..where to go? I hold my head in my hands sobbing quietly thinking back to the times before I came here to this safe place, this place of magic and hope.
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